Woman of many moods; The swing of the pendulum

Pms has struck again. *Rolls eyes*

The best way to describe my current mood is pendulum.

Yes.

My mood is currently equivalent to a weight that is suspended from a pivot so that it can swing freely. Unfortunately, although my moods may swing, I don’t think I would use freely in this context. Freely implies a positive expression.

In fact, I’d say the experience, PMS, is anything but that.

Not being able to control how you feel every month for at least 2–3 days in one week, has got to be one of the most annoying things in the world. As a woman I honestly feel powerless to the swing of the pendulum sometimes. I feel powerless against my own body sometimes.

Not all the time. But times when I can’t get out of bed, or when my insecurities start to heighten.

Times when I feel more tired that usual. Or times when my back aches to alert me that Mr. Tom (time of the month) is on his way.

Not only that, but I never knew there were so many women who were like me! So many women who feel as deflated as I do or feel even worse! I’ve heard stories about women shedding tears and becoming extremely depressed because of the swing of the pendulum.

I read an article today about how some woman whom suffer from PMS or PMDD can have suicidal thoughts or panic attacks. It never ceases to blow my mind how much women go through.

Sometimes I look back and I really wish our mothers, teachers, and schools would’ve spoken to us about all of these things. Just for awareness and the sake of knowledge.

But I guess this is just one more thing women have to go through.

It is well.

We are created the way we are because God intended us to be this way. He is a God of no mistakes and immaculate creation.

We’re just going to have to trust him on this.

Selah